I want to thank every one who has followed our journey. Everyone who has prayed for us, supported us, donated to us, cheered us on, cried with us. Thank you for your love. We couldn't have made it this far without you. Thank you.
And now. I don't even know how to say this. How to write this. How to handle any of this. Our doctor here in Winnipeg finally managed to get a hold of Toronto. He talked to the doctor we talked to in December. He talked to the head of the lung transplant team. He even tried to talk to the head of Toronto's transplant team. They avoided giving any specific answer, instead trying to pass us back to Edmonton, trying to find a way out of dealing with us at all, ending the conversation without any indication that they would ever get back to us or our doctor. Based on their actions, on what we know of the risk a transplant would be for Daniel, our doctor was left with telling us that the transplant is not going to happen.
I was scared of this. Since Christmas, it was like a switch was flipped. All of a sudden, I couldn't picture Toronto. I couldn't picture life after the transplant or the transplant itself. I hoped desperately to be wrong, but here we are, entering the hardest chapter of our lives. Harry Potter has kept popping into my head, specifically, the chapter where his focus switches, from fighting to facing the reality of his death, always close by but never a reality until that moment. We've been so focused on fighting for Daniel's life, like Harry, I can't remember us ever choosing not to fight. But now it's over, and it's time for the hardest walk of our lives.
So now what? We've been asked that a few times today. All we can think about right now is getting Daniel home. We're trying to get him cataract surgery so that he can see properly again. We're thinking about getting another kitten. We'll be a little family of four. We'll focus on living, and living well. That's all we've got right now.
I'm sorry we couldn't have a different ending. I'm sorry we can't celebrate together and do normal things together. But thank you for sticking with us. We're going to need love and support more than ever through this next chapter.
Laura
